swimmy, the stamp

bought this book (& Inch by Inch) in conjunction with our plan to watch the play by Act 3 International in mid Nov.

did the craft just because she has not been having much fun with colours and doodles lately. so do i.

we learnt "a school of fish", she wanted black colour but i don't have; she later doodled rather than stamped the potato.

it was a blast for both of us on the Saturday afternoon! *satisfy mode on*

I'm 50

kg.

and, This week, you officially begin your fifth month of pregnancy. Your baby... can both feel and hear. Admittedly at the moment, all he can hear is your heartbeat and the flow of your digestive system but soon he'll be able to detect noise outside the womb and identify your voice. - babycentre.com

i am pretty sure he/she will first detected hy's voice. at least once a day, hy will come to me and talk to my growing tummy. loud and clear, "baby, tomorrow you must play with me". or, "baby, tomorrow you cannot fight with me, ok!". i basically don't need to tell her what to say.

yes, she is eager to have a companion. and the baby is her force to behave well, learn fast, eat more and better. she understands that she will soon become a real big jie jie (sister) and have someone in the house to let her boss around, lol.

sc said, she is growing up now, getting ready to take some responsibility and be a good jiejie.

yeah, i certainly hope she will not be a lousy sister like i am now.

my guess is, everything starts from parents:).

a crave

i suddenly crave on UM's night stalls' nasi paprik! Stir-fried minced chicken with vegetables in a savoury and slightly-sweet and spicy sauce, served alongside with a plate of steamed rice. i understand there is a beef version of it which i never tried.

it was those old days we had for supper when we burnt mid-night oil for exam or running a project. i had nasi paprik the most, compare to others dishes like nasi pattaya or mee goreng or lontong or mee hailam or tomyam.

yeap, those days i was staying in hostel, and learn to live independently (and freely). it was the best time ever in my life (no nagging!)... except failed a paper in second year.

it was 10 year ago! and i never have it after graduation! but could only ramble on it here:(.

well, perhaps is time to plan for next balik kampung trip! ;)

the scans

didn't expect it to be this small.

top scan did on 31/8/09, measured as week 12.
bottom scan did on 12/9/09, measured as week 15.

all in all, the little is fine.*beaming*

so you see, i am finally done with my first trimester!

less 'evening sickness' but still fussy about food (very fussy). all i can do is eat little by little. all i want is my mum's food! or food from kl that tells me how blessed i was and i am now- mum brought me zhu-cheong-fan that i craved all the way from kl to sg.

thank goodness the little one is growing well. looking at it, i can see this is another little tough fighter like HY. fight to live on.

i should do better than what i am doing now.

i did an OSCAR test on 31/8. good result. is a relief.

but i have low haemoglobin count. prescribed Iron capsule daily, which may cause me constipation! and burps with the gas with it all the way from my abdomen. urrrh, i hate the gas!

Protein S Deficiency

After hearing about my first pregnancy story, Dr Tseng, recommended by Ade, asked me for a blood test on protein S level.

Protein S is a protein in our blood that prevents us from clotting too much.

i was told that my level of Protein S in blood is low. Which lead to Protein S Deficiency (PSD). PSD is a rare blood disorder that affects just a few thousand people worldwide. It is one of several known risk factors for thrombophilia and can increase the risk of blood clots such as Deep Vein Thrombosis (DVT) and Pulmonary Embolism (PE).

So, we finally realised that hy's premature birth is not an "unknown" after all.

That means, the current pregnancy is in the same risk too: blood clotting, affecting supplies to the fetus with oxygenated, nutrient-rich blood from the placenta, if untreated.

I was blank that, one small part of my body is not in order. Possibility that Hy is also inherited. While dealing with cranky tummy and nausea for the past whole month, i was like the FM radio, tuning forth and back at the right frequency of emotion and mindset.

eventually that whole months 'numb' me from being frighten. i just have to face it.

Dr Tseng seems experienced with such disorder with pregnancy, every visit to him is a relief. SC seems optimistic with this preggie; even the little one seems as tough as HY. without i realise it, he/she is measured as week 15 now!

It may not be that complicated. I probably the 'chosen' one for such challenge. who knows, tougher challenge may be further down the road.

books

though i'm exhausted by the end of everyday, bedtime story is still a must for her!

or rather, she read to me... with not very clear pronunciation and as much as she can memorise what been told.

book: Brown Bear, Brown Bear, What Do You See? and she finally learnt colour!

book: Panda Bear, Panda Bear, What Do You See? about observing the activity of animals as they charge, swoop, swing, swim, strut and splash.

both rhythmic text with vibrant images.

as of now

i am better.

come to think about it... all mamas have tough time, here or there. now or then. so, i guess this is not a big deal.

just wake up more frequent in the middle of the night for annum milk.

just grab time in office to have short power nap!

just look at my bulged tummy and tell my self i am doing good so far.

so long the embryo (soon to be fetus) is growing well and continue sucking nutrition through the placenta. i guess this is a sign signalling me that i should be glad.

by the way, i was first cured by roadside ice potong. last friday. the cranky tummy was then magically quiet and comforted, for once.

i thank all sending me your hugs and loves here. i desperately need it!

cranky tummy continues its effort in searching magical food!

Note: Due in March:).

thank you

thanks for all the messages coming in. it makes me feel better.
that i am not alien.
that it is not end of the world.
that i have several options to search for magical food.

that this is just the beginning...

out of control

i am not my self anymore.

i can't cook anymore. i don't enjoy the aroma as i used to.
i can't go foodcourt. i repulsively run away from it.
food is showing on tv, published in newspaper. but i nauseated.
i lost taste bud and hunger is calling all the time. day and night.

i am suffering.

food that i love become bland. food become meaningless to me. food is just a stuff to stuff up my tummy.
nothing is inspiring; nothing is sparkling attractive to me!
life seems ending.

i am soulless.

laying on my bed and thinking of life.
life in my uterus.
life that is just started its heartbeating.

i am seeking for help.

help to continue my proud records of gaining 3 kgs in 3 weeks time.

my papa

i have not taken a very beautiful picture of him. and her :).

Credit: paper from BohenianArt; elements from akizo designs, Mimilou designs, MichelleColeman, Michelle Buss (MickeybDesigns) and Eve Recinella

A happy (belated) Father's Day.